scratch that
I talked to my sister. She was aware that everyone was going to be here tomorrow.
I’m starting to realize that I’m letting these things get to me way more than they have to.
There is a parable about the Buddha and an angry young man [1]. The young man insults the Buddha viciously, and eventually gets frustrated that the Buddha is not effected by the insults.
The Buddha asks the young man, “If someone hands you a gift, and you refuse to receive it, to whom does the gift belong?”
Hearing that parable, which I serrendipitiously stumbled upon about 3 days ago, makes a lot more sense today. Realizing that I can either a) take all my mom’s drama, and all my sister’s drama, and all my families drama upon myself, and let it tear me apart, or b) refuse to accept these gifts, and remain calm and centered in myself gave me so much freedom and power.
I have been letting the holiday drama that is created by my family situation and my mother rip me to shreds. It has rocked my boat, but only because I accepted the burden.
Also, hearing why my parents got divorced made things make a TON more sense. Honestly, after my dad told me, from his perspective, why it happened, I had seen it for a while.
on January 5th, 2008 at 9:55 pm
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